
Well, we leave one week from today, and the preparations are in full swing. It has been pretty stressful trying to think of everything we may need and trying to get all of it done and ready. It's
really hard packing when I don't truly know what our circumstances will be like, much less packing for a baby that we don't actually
know yet. It's much harder trying to figure out what to bring for Bear than I thought it would be. For instance, will he be nursing or will he need formula? Bring formula just in case. How much and what kind? Two kinds and lots, just in case. Will he like the bottles we bring, and what about nipples? Bring three different kinds of nipples, just in case. Will he want pacifiers? Bring 5 different kinds. What size clothes does he wear? Bring three different sizes. What size diapers? And how many? Bring LOTS of two different sizes.
JUST.
IN.
CASE.
Whew! To be quite honest, I'm just ready to get this part of the adoption journey over with and be back home with my WHOLE family, resting and getting to know each other and finding our new "normal". Not to say that I'm not
STOKED to see Ethiopia, and to hold my sweet boy for the first time. I am so stoked. I can't wait for those things. I'm just so done with packing and paperwork!

We heard about this idea from other families. We will be gone for ten days, so we wrapped ten presents for Brenner. This way he can have a visual of how long we will be gone and see the days counting down as the presents disappear! I think Brenner will really like this (what kid doesn't like presents?) and hopefully it will make the time away from Mommy and Daddy just a little easier. One more thing checked off my list!

As many of you know, I'm going to nurse Bear. It's amazing how normal this seems to me now, considering I didn't even know adoptive nursing was possible a year ago! Things on this front are going well. This has been my process so far:
1. 1 BCP pill every day for six months.
2. 2 Dom pills 4x a day every day for six months.
3. Increase Dom to 3 Dom pills 3 time a day.
4. 9 Fenugreek tablets each day.
5. 9 Blessed thistle tablets each day.
6. Cut out all mint and peppermint. (including switching toothpaste, gum, and chapstick)
7. Pumping once an hour every hour during the day
8. Pumping 3 times during the night.
9. Mama's milk tea
10. Lots of oatmeal!
Needless to say, it's been an uphill battle, but one I'm proud to have been fighting. As of now I am making 12oz a day for my sweet little one, and freezing and saving every drop I get for when baby gets home. What an honor to be able to give this gift to my son!